Vulnerable hearts

Why do I feel alone? Not alone in a sense where some form of personal interaction is necessary, but more so in an intellectual manner.

Is my way of thinking really that unique to the point that instinctive affections counteract a persons first initial approach?

My perspective on romance seems to be quite different but I can't be alone in the way I've learned to love. I "learned" how to love, meaning that there must have been a teacher. So there's a hope that I could still share the precious idea of romance I possess, but was I really the only student present during this course of affectionate assurance?

Can vulnerability be overlooked, undermined, and even under valued? I believe the response required is a sacrificial effort not many people are willing to partake in, but yet so many expect the end result without any effort involved.

Thank God I serve a Lord who believes in loving with vulnerability, even if it means sharing his perception with those who probably didn't take that "class".

We love each other because he loved us first. (1 John 4:19 NLT)

Lost souls incorporated.

"Come, follow me," Jesus said, "and I will send you out to fish for people." (Matthew 4:19)

I don't think I have realized the truth of this statement until just recently.

Jesus has fished for me, and let me tell you, he could have used any bait possible and I know for sure he would have reeled me in, without a doubt.

I never believed I was lost before I came to Christ. I thought I had life all figured out. Even till this day there are things in my life in which I need supernatural guidance for, but to give in was hard. It was hard learning that no matter how many years you have been investing in your ego and reputation, that it could all literally be shifted within a single solitary moment.

God has healed me of the major issues I used to deal with in my life, and honestly the recovery for that seemed swift and easy. It's not until I begin to grow my trust in him that I then begin to see how hard it is to recover from the internal issues I've created for myself that had let up to the larger problems.

When you truly begin to start feeling the macro changes in the deepest arena of your rationalizing, it's then that the recovery becomes hard. You can't deal with transformation of who you are, more like who you were. I am now made new in the eyes of the Lord and share in his everlasting glory! Take THAT all you who try to have me conform to images that you all have laid out for me. I know who I am, because of who I rely on. I have been transformed by the power of God. Nothing, nor anyone will take away the glorious experience I have had with my Lord, my God! Glory be to Jesus, forever and ever, Amen!

Raising my child to be.......

Raising my child to be......

After having the gratification of spending a whole week with little children, it wasn't until we engaged in an intellectual conversation that i began to realize a problem.

Everything was great, as far as participating in the very nature of what a child's tendencies tend to be, but after a few days of interaction i became very surprised at the intellectual level of these children that were young enough not to have a reason for their logic.

So, me being the curious cat that i am, i began to ask questions. I mean why not, these kids were raised by engineers, lawyers, etc. lets find out what kind of principles were instilled within them.

"Who created the universe, what is in control of EVERYTHING?", i asked. Only to begin receiving answers that showed no correlation to the children's intellect. Giving me answers that were so far off from what i had assumed. Reason being because before this ultimate question had been announced, these kids were throwing facts at me left and write, and to then come to the conclusion that the best answer to my question was "nature".

You would think that coming from kids who understood the astrological assignments of the stars, the feeding tendencies of a shark, or even to go as deep as to explain the structure of an atom, would come up with a better answer than just "nature". Goes to show that the question had never been taught, let alone meditated on. Isn't this the job of the parents to establish a strong foundation in their kids so they can grow older to live morally pleasant lives? To build honor, respect, and a fear of the almighty God who ordains the very vibration of their atomic structure.

Now i know why God says: "If anyone causes one of these little ones—those who believe in me—to stumble, it would be better for them to have a large millstone hung around their neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea"(Matthew 18:6).

Its better to DIE than to lead a child into a life blind to the reality that there is someone in authority greater than any of that which is of this world. How could a parent not see their responsibility of needing to lead their children to believe in the one thing that will always protect, guide, and nourish them? Do parents have a pride to them that keeps them from giving up authority to someone greater than themselves, as if they were the only ones responsible for the creation of the child.

Teach your kids to love God! Stop letting them live their lives with an intellect thats capable of absorbing everything they hear and that floats around this world with an unstable framework because no foundation was established. Parenting is such a huge responsibility! You are responsible for how that child responds to the reality they are confronted with everyday!

Why?

Why are some things easier to get rid of than others? Why do I have to give in to everything that is thrown my way? Is there a way to be stronger and not be sucked into the evil deeds of greed?

Of course there is. Apostle Paul writes, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:6, 7)".

That's a powerful statement to have hope in, especially in a society where the very essence of multi taskment is embedded in our habitual tendencies. Leaving our minds to be scattered, and aimlessly looking for a foundation that will not be shaken by the misunderstanding of our assumptions.

In a society where the question "why?" seems to be the very thing that nourishes our doubt, being in control of every occurrence becomes the effect of the ignorantly mild form of interpretation we have all inherited. Cast our worry unto someone who truly cares about us! No one will love you more than Jesus, who warns you that by doubting and building your foundation off of this doubt, we will eventually be destroyed in our own efforts to create an everlasting experience of life.

That's why he says, ""Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand
(Matthew 7:24, 26)".

Clear instructions from a man living a couple thousand years ago, and we as a society still can't seem to get things together. Not only does he warn us of what our own internal assumptions will cause us, but he also reassures us that the answer lies within himself. Love Jesus above all and his peace and understanding will transcend any desire you have to hope in something "seen", rather than something "unseen".

Dreams

Sometimes it feels as if being asleep seems to be the only logical way to look at life. Why couldn't life be what we dream?

Things would be so much easier if everyone in our world had the ability to become the creators we are all capable of being! No one would have issues because probability wouldn't exist, neither would fault.

Excuses would never be heard of, and happiness would be everyone's goal in life.

I wonder how difficult it would be though if Love were to be controlled by the discretion of just one soul rather than a couple's. The spouse of your dreams would be your current mate, but than what happens when curiosity no longer exist. Nothing would be in absence because all would be manifested through someone's creation.

What would life be if everyone received everything they ever wanted? Would there be such a thing as need or desire? Why would we want to diminish that, that to me is the most intriguing asset life has to offer!

"Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him." (Matthew 6:8)

Egotistical"ism"

Why is ego such an important issue here in this world? Why does pride have to be the effect of all causes?

What you see isn't what you get. Thoughts that make you believe you are superior to any other human life is by far the result of your ignorance.

What would classify someone as being more "important" than anyone else, in a world where everyone is equal?

In my own belief, I believe that those who are in control of their thoughts, rarely deal with issues of feelings and emotions, which to me are the causes of superficial living.

We can sit back and watch the world around us take in different personalities and different assumptions as to how things SHOULD be, when in reality no one should ever have to seek guidance apart from Jesus because our minds, thoughts, and conscious all have the power to exceed all that divides a person's soul. Which in turn helps you relinquish what it is that each person seek's in life.

Find out who you are, not what they made you!

"I am not seeking glory for myself; but there is one who seeks it, and he is the judge." (John 8:50)

Princess of God poem

The agony and pain, so easy to obtain/thoughts in my mind are driving me insane/
I can't stop looking and can't stop feeding, needing the the things that force me to play/
I look at her and begin to lust, my eyes I've learned I cannot trust/
her shape is conformed, to the images that please/not realizing my mind, is creating the tease/
it's not about her breast, her butt, or legs/ the mess of my thoughts, would show me no less/
of who I am, more like who I was/ in God I trust, now I'm transformed to love/
I don't like that I saw women as toys/thought I was a man, But truly a little boy/
I can't provide for another, so why shop with my sight/fantasizing about strangers, the way I should for my wife/
thank you God for giving me life, allowing me the sight of beauty, not the tights/
with my head in the psalms, I look past the bod/ next time we see a women, let's just remember shes a princess of God/

But wait I'm not finished, cuz it gets lonely to wait/diminished temptation, only increases your faith/
abandoned from blessings, oh so it seems/willing to deny Christ, to satisfy your needs/
Don't give in, and just wait a moment/for God, not flesh, is what you put hope in/
ladies stop settling, for man is blind to your worth/if he's not lost in God, you'll be drowning in hurt/
as for men, learn to love her, grab her heart and smother/treat her the way you would to your mother/
but be sure of commitment, or dump and don't bother/ let's stand up as Men and regain our HONOR!/
be loyal, faithful, don't cheat and don't lie, cuz she deserves the rest of your life/
if you think I'm playing see what God says, about what the church meant to JESUS/
ladies, next time a guy is down to have sex, analyze his commitment, is he down till the death/

By Jeremy veras

Star gazing

"When I consider your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place, what is mankind that you are mindful of them,
human beings that you care for them?"(Psalm 8:3, 4 NIV)


The sweet aroma of genuine intellect fulfills every majestic curiosity that my brain can handle.

If a clear night sky could do this for me, I could only imagine the neurological pressure it would place on my reasoning if I could only see from a stars point of view.

Looking down at the earth, not understanding the simple movements that are associated with each systemic instinctive occurrence of every individual's life.

The capacity of the universe tends to limit our fathomability. But the real stimulation lies in our search for some form of revelation as to how this all was manufactured.

Logically speaking, I will tend to reason from the position I am in, to further try to explain the position beyond. With our ability to perceive we come to the conclusion that some form of affection is associated in the process of manufacturing thought. So is there enough evidence to conclude that somewhere outside of this world lies an abundant level of every known emotion?

It kind of leaves you with joy to know the possibilities of your lonesome evenings being shared with someone hassling with the same concepts somewhere across this planet.

We are truly never alone, as someone once told me. I will hold on strongly to that and see the deeper meaning of what it's like to vision a counterpart with the same struggles, sharing in the same delight of recovery.

Look up on a clear nights sky, hey it can happen!

As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death

"Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God." (Romans 15:7 NIV)

I saw a movie last night that really moved me. I don't want to call it out because it will only lead to hypocritical assumptions.

Anyways, I have to come to realize how easily people can be manipulated with the simple act of acceptance. As a child we are most vulnerable and prone to the idea that the first mission we are given is the only option we have for life! We can fight every day and every night for the causes we believe to be true to ourselves, but at the end of the day nothing that consists of space really matters.

Matter itself, is what it is, and emotions towards something that doesn't exist only leads to unnecessary thoughts and habits. Imagine being the possible to the impossible, and leaving all doubt behind. You begin to realize that nothing is in your way of life.

Life doesn't mean you have to set goals and achievements in order to obtain satisfaction, because that is all a learned behavior through society. The need to feel successful comes into play through the desire to please the thought of people looking up to you as a model of what is supposed to be.

Being isn't defined through success, being is displayed when a person no longer plays the role of the "sheep" in our society. Individual thoughts and knowledge is measured with the idea that those who tend to feel emotional discomfort are generally weak to individualism.

A nightlife outing

"Let us behave decently, as in the daytime, not in carousing and drunkenness, not in sexual immorality and debauchery, not in dissension and jealousy." (Romans 13:13 NIV)

As I look at the position I am in, I begin to realize my lack of confidence in my perception. Why is it that I am so susceptible to the false reality that seems to justify my insecurities? Why do I move to the sound of nothingness? Why does something with no content seem to motivate my creativity.

The creativity has no substance, so I'm left with ideas that have nothing better to do in my mind than disintegrate back into its most minute foundation. Which seems to be my heart.

That can't be though because I was transformed to love. How can I love someone, but yet be a bad example in loving myself. My mind is worth more than a few hours of manipulative stimulation that's been conformed to meet the standards of my predetermined intuition.

Predetermined? Yes, simply because what I have known, is what I do best, which is assume. Assumption can really predetermine your motives and intent if the correct awareness is applied. How do we know the correct awareness is applied? Well, imagine what makes you happy. Now imagine what makes you sad. Everything that lies in between seems to be the very essence of our neurological projections.

How can we be blind to such an amazing attribute that rationalizes our perception.

To be or not to be.

"Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies." (1 Corinthians 6:19, 20 NIV)

I met with someone that inspired me highly yesterday. Not because of how fit and dedicated this person was, but more for the outlook of life she had.

I was fond of what passion this female dancer had, and seeing what desire meant firsthand. I'm talking about a Florida native, moving to a huge demanding city where every turn you make, better be the right one. Were talking about a 22 year old girl alone in the big city of Manhattan, making a career for herself, and a very promising one at that!

You can't be a professional dancer for big time celebrities unless you have the talent, and the looks that match the high demand of attractiveness in our society today. Passion at it's finest was exposed to me and I didn't know how to interpret it.

I loved everything about what she did in order to achieve her greatest success. Feeding her body the best of the best, only to compliment the hard work she puts in to practice and train to be the best dancer she can be. Training two times a day at some points, and relying solely on vegetables and fruits to be her midnight snack.

Feeding a high powered machine all of it's required nutrients, has led her to achieve things that most people in her career dream of.

What I'm trying to come to is that it's my duty to train her to get her to reach a peak level of performance. Her dedication and desire will push me to do everything in my power to let her be the best she can! My regimens for her will be very well thought out and detailed to meet her highest expectations.

I will be nothing less than an elite trainer to an elite enthusiasts!

People find that passion that you have in your life and relate it back to your health. Do you need to be more in shape to meet your desire? Is your health holding you back? Make a change and adjust to get back on track with your destiny. Be ELITE, or you won't be fit enough to compete! It's not too late!

Motivation is something within.......

"Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the realm of the dead, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom." (Ecclesiastes 9:10 NIV)

Why can't some of us find it? Why as human beings, do we believe that self discipline is something your taught?

Actually, it's more like something you use. Waking up every morning can be tough, believe me I know, especially due to the lack of sleep I have been experiencing lately.

What pushes us to get up and tackle the day? Are we forced to get out of bed where it's warm, comfy, and just so accepting of your body's every desire, or do we enjoy the presence of the waking sun and give thanks for the beautiful day that is in store for us all?

We must be grateful! Grateful for the fact that we HAVE the ability to get up out of bed, the ability to WALK to the bathroom, the ability to HAVE a wardrobe to choose from, the ability to MAKE breakfast, the ability to WORK, the ability to HAVE a VOICE!

I have come to the point in my life where I just want to be so brutally blunt to those who take the little things in life for granted, and explain to them why their choices in life are resulting from their insecure perceptions of reality. If you're overweight, than WALK. If you're broke, than WORK. If your hungry, than COOK. If you have heart issues, than take the INITIATIVE.

If NOT then give it to someone who will utilize these gifts, and not take the lack of motivation fore-granted.

All i'm saying is that we ALL have problems and issues that seem to be a factor in our decision making. Just do it! Nothing else should be said. We are who we are, by what we do! Learn to take the initiative and start living up to the expectations you have for yourself, and stop giving up when times get a bit hard. We are fortunate to even have the capacity to understand this concept! BE GRATEFUL FOR IT.

I don't know what to call it.

"And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.
God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them." (1 John 4:16)

I'm on vacation now in the New England area and I must say, it is DARN cold. Given the temperature I am forced to deal with, I have been allowing myself to really reminisce on my beliefs and faiths.

Love for me has been such a huge contribution to my perception of what happiness should represent, and I can't exactly explain how grateful I am to have people who love me, and be able to eliminate any and every prideful intention, just to satisfy my observations.

I have never experienced what it's like to be vulnerable, when there are other people looking to stimluate my happiness. You reach a state of euphoria, whether it be temporary or not, the idea that it exist allows me to come back to that special occurence and experience it again, and again.

I never knew that compassion could lead to the understanding of extreme pleasure, but I must say it will be something I will be constantly thinking about when it comes to overcoming a sitution.

Who would have thought?

"Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour." (1 Peter 5:8 NIV)

The very existence of every occurrence in my life seems to be momentarily stimulating. Symbols are becoming more prone to an emotional standpoint, and the reality is, I understand myself more than I ever have.

The ability to create a future, while not assuming that the present situations will have any affect to a specific outcome, has led me to believe that any positive transformation was pre-planned.

I notice that everything in my life is just a mere sub-coordinate to the divine establishment we consider Unity. I like to consider every artificial emotional disturbance, while looking for the meaning of what my mind consist of.

Why so? Well, people only measure the ordinance of a subject negatively, because if thoughts were positive, a controllable outcome would be the least of people's worries.

A minor quote with large meaning....

"You can accept who he or she is becoming, but you don't have to keep them in your life if they're not enriching it. There is nothing wrong with moving on."

Mighty lion, Gentle Bird.......

You should never allow anyone to have the benefit of assuming your value.

Capability is the essence of knowing your passion, and overcoming any obstacles that keep you from achieving desire.

Pleasure is what one seeks after realizing their desires are too difficult to achieve, or require too much effort. It's easier to desire pleasure, than to desire the hard work it takes to get there.

Loneliness only exist in an unproductive mind!

"On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you." (John 14:20)